Dear Kayden....

Dear Kay.
There's so much to say! How have you been baby girl?
I'm sure you so big now. Is your hair still beautifully blond? I'm sure it is.
Well baby Kay. You're an aunt now! Ashwee had a little boy! She had it in her tummy and she gets to keep it! It's her very own. I'm sure you're gonna love him. His name is Liam. He's precious.
Kayden, it's been three hundred four days since you've been home. I keep telling myself that you'll be okay once you get back here, but there is always that doubt that you'll maybe love them more then you love us. If you do, we'll be alright. I just want you to be okay. For you to be loved. No matter how much it hurts me.
I still have your giraffe. Do you have mine? I snuggle it every night, thinking of you.
I miss you lots.
I miss taking walks with you while you sing to me.
I miss doing your make up and letting you do mine.
I miss taking pictures with you when we're suppose to be sleeping.
I miss You.
Court is twenty eight days away. I remember our court date in August; When it got put off until October. I though there way no way I could wait until then. I guess I did. And I guess I can wait twenty eight more days. Hopefully.
It does give me hope to know that Jesus went through his worst day so that I could go through mine.
You'll never know how much you mean to me baby girl. I love you so much. See you soon, okay?
Goodnight "Julie".