Dear Kayden.

Dear Kay.
How have you been? I hope you're good. How's your new big brother? Does he play games with you? Does he tell you how beautiful you are when you try on your princess dress? 'Cause you know your beautifuler than all the other princesses.
Is it getting warm over there yet? Can you play on our slip-n-slide?!
Kayden I miss you. We're down in gulf shores right now, visiting baby Liam and Ashley and Halley. She's a big dog but she won't bite you. You're a big girl, so you're not ascared, right?
Kayden Gace, sometimes I can't help but feel happy, but then I beat myself up because I remember what we're putting you through. But I don't want to feel happy, not when you're not here.
It's been 321 days.
That's more than 100 pictures I'll never get to take.
More than 300 days that I'll never get to hear you sing to me.
More than 500 times I won't get to hold your hand.
More than 1,000 kisses I'll never get to kiss.
And more than 1,000,000 "I love you"s I'll never get to say.
I literally break when I think about you. Which is why I can't decide if it's worse to remember or forget.
But then I choose remember because I don't care if it hurts. I love you too much to.
Court is only 11 days away. Yet 11 days sounds like a life time.
But, somehow, I'll get through.
Just know I miss you angel. More than anything.
Hold on baby girl. We're almost finished.

Love- Hannah-Cake

Not so wordless Wednesday =)

-We worship to show God how thankful we are. We worship because we are able to. We worship to give thanks to him for ALL the blessings and all the heartaches. We worship, because it is the core of our whole existence..

Dear Kayden....

Dear Kay.
There's so much to say! How have you been baby girl?
I'm sure you so big now. Is your hair still beautifully blond? I'm sure it is.
Well baby Kay. You're an aunt now! Ashwee had a little boy! She had it in her tummy and she gets to keep it! It's her very own. I'm sure you're gonna love him. His name is Liam. He's precious.
Kayden, it's been three hundred four days since you've been home. I keep telling myself that you'll be okay once you get back here, but there is always that doubt that you'll maybe love them more then you love us. If you do, we'll be alright. I just want you to be okay. For you to be loved. No matter how much it hurts me.
I still have your giraffe. Do you have mine? I snuggle it every night, thinking of you.
I miss you lots.
I miss taking walks with you while you sing to me.
I miss doing your make up and letting you do mine.
I miss taking pictures with you when we're suppose to be sleeping.
I miss You.
Court is twenty eight days away. I remember our court date in August; When it got put off until October. I though there way no way I could wait until then. I guess I did. And I guess I can wait twenty eight more days. Hopefully.
It does give me hope to know that Jesus went through his worst day so that I could go through mine.
You'll never know how much you mean to me baby girl. I love you so much. See you soon, okay?
Goodnight "Julie".